sometimes i wonder why we shld be optimistic...
the idea seems quite ridiculous after a while...
i think i kinda stop believing in it some time ago...
yeah i still tell ppl to remain optimistic abt stuff and all that but maybe its more on the basis of need rather than belief...
take it as i'm lying then but i happen to be one of those who believe lies are sometimes needed to make everyone better off...
believe me or not...
being pessimistic is better off then being optimistic...
isn't it the same as results?
aim low and u'll be more likely to be satisfied... aim high and u'll be more likely to end up disappointed...
falling all the way from the top to the bottom has always been the most painful...
ignoring all else... between satisfaction and disappointment which 'll u choose?
in the end... is that hope worth all the pain and disappointment?
everyone knows its better to aim low but then how many of us can really do it...
humans... being incomplete... can only do so much to help themselves...
even though we know something is wrongand that it shldn't be done... we continue to do it anyway... a behaviour with an explaination that stops only at the word "rebellious"
hope haunts and echoes around us all the time...
how many times have we opened our hearts to hope... only to end up broken and lost while hope continues to swirl ard... looking for another chance to strike...
in order to carry on living... we need hopes...
to believe that life 'll become better... to believe that we'll 've our happy endings...
but if life was really that wonderful that beautiful... 'ld we 've needed hope in the 1st place?
perhaps in the end hope is only a form of positive self-denial... a white lie that seek to make us feel better...
yet...
after the lie has been exposed after the grand illusion has been dissolved... wats left is only the sorrow of reality...
hasn't it been the same for me...
to 've held such high hopes in the beginning of the yr... a chance to start anew for us...
but yet fate took each of us on different paths... to give us different futures that may or may not coincide...
moving on i held fresh hopes again... choosing to believe that everything 'll remain fine and unchanged...
hah...
sometimes things juz doesn't seem that way but i continue to deceive continue to cheat continue to hope...
i cldn't control myself... hope is very hard to let go of...
afterall i'm only a human - incomplete and flawed in too many ways...
while i still continue to hope...
sometimes i wonder why isit that i feel sorrow...
is it that only in the depths of hopelessness can sorrow be absent from life?
*i place my hand into the flame...
and wonder why there isn't any feeling...
is it me or is it the flame?
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