2008 to 2009

i have been really busy for the past few days. met up with the other 72ers on Sat, my cousin's wedding on Sun, movie (Ip Man) on Mon and then dinner at Chomp Chomp on Tues. I was wondering whether i should blog about each event in detail but it seems to be too much of a chore to go through the mental process of recollecting and rearranging my thoughts to form a proper blog entry haha.

After havocing (somewhat) for the past few days, i decided to stay at home and just countdown online haha. well its not that i have any plans for countdown but its nice to take a break from everything and just sit quietly at home. it didn't feel like the last day of a year to me today or maybe it was because i was busy at work for the first half of the day haha. definitely different from the usual 31st Dec which is usual spent in anticipation and contemplation. oh well things just change don't they...

and its going to be 2009!

Happy New Year to everyone!

JUST A FEELING

i'm trying quite hard at work so i guess i should be quite satisfied with myself.

once in a while, i still get that feeling that i'm just caught in the tide, just being pushed along instead of moving willingly ahead on my own. i think i have been looking high and low for ways and means to apologise to myself but its just that life really isn't all about me and me alone. when you realise that it's also about about so many other people around you, it's also the time when you realise the tide's already here. i guess this is just how things are like and at the very least, i know what is it that i want.

属于我的昨天之前的结局 我决定我的决定

属于我的明天之后的憧憬 我迷信我的迷信

couldn't have been any more appropriate. hah.

AFTER ONE WEEK OF WORK ...

even though it's only my first week at work but i was already waiting impatiently for the weekend to come when it was only like Wednesday haha. its not that work is really tough or anything but its just very sianz - there's the whole process of waking up early, squeezing with the morning crowd on the way to work, dealing with all the new stuff that keeps coming my way and having to settle into the new working environment and trying to PR myself to all the new people (at the end of the week, i concluded i'm really not doing a very good job at it) the routine of it really wears me down, which is that feeling of inevitability when you go to sleep at night knowing what's coming up the next day after day after day. and i really have long working hours, clocking 10h per day. not to mention its quite irritating to have the "you-are-underpaid" idea revolving around my head the whole time (YES! I REALLY THINK I AM UNDERPAID!) and it gets worse when i look at the calendar and see that its only the start of the month! money is sure hard to earn, sigh...

now that its finally the weekend, i find myself stuck at home doing nothing... sigh...

and i'm currently in this "i-hate-this-world" mood right now. it's just one of those days when everything goes wrong and nothing satisfies you, and after cursing and swearing at everything for the whole day, you will wake up and forget all the angst the next morning.

yeah i guess its just one of those lousy days...