... ... BLKS TEST 2 ... ...

i realised i 've been very stressed lately...
with all kinds of things bugging me... so depressing lah...
i discovered i 've quite abit of white hair...
at the rate i'm going... i think i'll be 5o by the end of this yr...
at the same time...
parts of my hair seem to turning brown...
i plucked out 1 strand of hair the other day which was totally brown...
muz be all the stress... my hormonal lvls r spiralling out of control or it may be due to spontaneous mutations in my genes that results in this "evolution"...
maybe i'll be joining the x-men soon... the mutant with absurd and random hair colours to confuse enemies and sneak an attack in the time being or simply sneak away while they're erm... preoccupied with the hair...
i absolutely can't believe i'm so useful...


blk test 2 ended today.

... ... NPCC CELEBRATION DINNER ... ...

back from npcc celebration dinner tonite or rather yesterday nite...
it was held to celebrate the 10th consecutive gold which also won us the special unit excellence award - a golden drillcane haha... although i thought the silver one still looks better =P
too bad newtown for it also... or else we 'll be like the only npcc unit to get the special award haha...
in all kinds of way... i suppose we did contribute a little here and there for 4 yrs to help get the award so shld go and erm... "celebrate" haha... watever lah...

anyway...
only me cr klo yizhi and tanwen were there to represent out batch quite sad loh... only 5/33 came...
aiyah... but then i wasn't expecting much anyway...
not with blk tests coming up in 1 day's time and well... other long-standing factors...
i suppose it was really abit strange to go dinner while everyone else is mugging at home *shrugs* but anyway i still went haha =)
paid $40 for the furama riverfront hotel dinner... but i think the high cost was due more to the hotel then the food there which was like really quite average...
after spending like ages getting past the reception and into the room we went to inspect the display of awards and photos of the past 10 yrs... took photos of tbem... i mean they were like the whole point of the dinnner loh of course cannot miss them out...
then came all the speeches and presentation of awards and so on before dinner offically starts at like 8+?
i was like totally starving already loh... kinda skipped lunch earlier also and waited so long for them to start dinner...
salad wasn't very gd except maybe for the sushi haha... but it was like softshell crab seafood stuff whihc i cldn't really touch so unfair loh...
main course was a WEIRD mixture of food lah... and as usual they had stuff like prawns which was like totally out of bounds for me and it was like the most expensive food ard already... bleah...
desserts was mainly cakes but i got sick of them after 1 slice... the taste was like super sweet and thick... didn't dare to take another 1 after that haha...

rite... enough abt food...
anyway they presented this "unit star award" to kala and lokelf haha... the award was like a hong xing da jiang those kind loh... 1 stem then got 1 star at the top haha quite cool...
there were intervals of lucky draws here and there + squad performances too...
lots of spoof of the bird commercial as well as the mr brown version altough i thought they cld be more well done to make it more funny haha...
the sec1s were also like go up there and gan gan sing song one... not bad loh reminds me of the time when my squad went up on stage to sing song also... i shall not comment on the standard of our performance on that faithful nite like 4 yrs ago haha...

haha okay... guess it juz isn't our year or time anymore...
2 yrs is a long time...
lots of things and ppl 've changed i suppose...
but then well... sometimes we juz wish things were still the same... that change isn't the only permanent thing in our lives...
naive? perhaps bah but sometimes we juz need to kid oursleves into believing... haha...

okay this has been quite a long entry...
shall stop here for now...
afterall blks is still coming in like 1 day's time... =(
but then on a higher note...
it ends in 5 days! =)
jiayou and all the best everyone!

... ... FOR TRYING ... ...

tonite is my slack nite!
not that i factored it into my timetable but juz that i didn't feel like doing much today haha...
basically finished up on probability, watched SI results + Lost and switched off after that =)

anyway i was juz stoning online as usual and pondering over random stuff that pop into my head...
i kinda realise that i 've detoriated in some aspects ever since i entered JC haha...
for one matter i can't seem to express my thoughts into words properly!
quite irritating when i wanna say smth but don't know how to put it across... then i'll juz get stuck there for a long time trying to figure out how i shld phrase my sentences...
not that i was like super fluent eloquent and pro back in the "good old days" but i guess i was certainly better then...
oh i juz thought of smth haha...
maybe i wld do better in chinese instead!!! haha that wld be cool!!!
but then no one 'll chat in chinese on msn so yeah haha...
somehow i always 've this impression that english may be more complicated and so on but chinese seems to be better at expressing ideas and emotions... or maybe its juz me pseudo-1-sided preferrence for chinese songs haha...

or this might be an effect of a prolonged absence of elit in my life haha...
haven't touched much lit stuff ever since o'lvl... missing it quite badly for some reason...
compare it to wat i'm mugging through nowadays and i'm sure u can see why haha...
hey i was never a maths/science person all along loh...
muz be all these subjects making my brain rigid and frozen solid...
i'm losing all my creativity and imagination!!!
i need to do stuff that has no restictions no absolutes and allows personal expression of thoughts and ideas... basically free and wild!
hm... and i 've no idea wat that might be...

on another note...
life's absurd the way it is...
somethings require a blind faith but we r unable to shut out the light that comes with thoughts and emotions...
how do we dispel all doubts and find the faith in all that we need to believe in?
there isn't an ans is there...
but i guess wat we all know is that life is all abt trying...
we always say "u'll never know until u try" but not "u'll never try until u know"...
a future unknown is wat we r trying for...
because the future is unknown we r trying...
because we believe we can make a difference we r trying...
because we r scared we r trying...
because we r trying we r scared...
because we r trying we believe we r making a difference...
because we r trying the future is unknown...
forgive me if i can't remove ur fear...
but if it helps i'm equally scared too...
let us try together for our own futures...

... ... UPDATE ... ...

okay here i am again...
was too lazy to blog the last few days haha...
rite lets get on with it then =)

went for kbox on tuesday with np...
haha not bad lah...
all the male singers cannot reach their pitch but it was much better for the female singers haha...
played ard with the key also but it didn't really help much i guess haha...
forgot to sing some songs actually but nvm cause i don't think i can make it anyway haha...

anyway...
after that it was back to mugging and thats wat i've been doing for the pas few days...
except maybe for sat and sun when i played abit in the afternoon =)
and i committed a sin this morning/afternoon!!
i woke up at 12+ today!!! thats like so time wasting lah!
and today is the 1st of my "heavy studying" days loh... haha...
now i'm like quite behind time already... and rite now my chem notes happen to be stagnant infront of me for the last hour...
therefore from now on i'm gonna set alarm!
but i haven't quite decided wat time to set it at yet haha... shall see abt it later =)
okay nvm its time to go back to chem... muz jian chi dao di... ah guat 'll be so proud of me haha...
even if i don't produce the grades at least i 've the spirit loh!










yeah rite... i'm sure...
sianz...

... ... Sakae Sushi

went to sch to study with dawei today...
finished up my enzyme notes and went on to maths (trigo)...
eee...
was dead after like 1h+ of it...
maths is totally idiotic and trigo makes u convert here convert there for no apparent reasons lah... like why in the world wld i make things so difficult for myself in the future...
watever lah... never understand wat maths is abt...

after starving and freezing inside the reading rm for the whole morning... we went off at abt 2+ for sakae sushi at heeren!
haha first to arrive there and waited for the rest...
in the end turn out there were 10 guys and 2 girls... haha kinda not balanced eh...
1st thing we did when we went in was to zham orders rite away then started grabbing plates off the conveyor belt...
the other table started bio session with Dr Zhou's lecture on cell structure of cholroplast with the grana and the intergrana lamella (made up of plates and chopsticks!)...
too bad the attempt to video it down failed when the waiter came to remove the plates for replenishing purposes... awww juz imagine the countless ppl who wld be a step closer to understanding biology after watching the video... so sad sobz...
oh well anyway...
we went on to zham orders which came really really slow...
maybe thats how they cut their losses during buffet period, 've slow service so the customers can't order too much... so jian loh haha...
and i pity the staff there... imagine running all over the place taking the same orders again and again nonstop... like when the same table orders the same stuff for 3 separate times haha...
anyway went off for pool afterwards before going home...

yup so thats it for tuesday...
needa finish up my bio cell structure now... and i'm suppose to do abit of econs tys today also =(
and its back to sch to study tml... before going out again on thurs haha...
i think i'm going out abit too often but then again i'm not into the studying mood yet haha...
sigh... so sianz its back to mugging now...
cya...

... ... CHALET ... ...

had class chalet from wed to thurs...
wasn't all that bad haha...
was the standard fare... with ps mahjong cards vb frisbee and the new "hai ni zai xin kou nan kai" game...
stayed inside the chalet mostly except going to the seaside at ard 5am in the morning...
liked the feeling there alot... juz sitting there watching the waves and stars and feeling the wind on u cool =)
checked out ard 10+ and went home straight cause everyone was too tired to do anything else haha...

hm... dunno if i'll be going out again nxt wk...
lots of tentative stuff... wonder how i'm gonna concentrate on my studying...
in the 1st place... my timetable's not even done yet...
dunno where to start fitting everything into it so its still blank infront of me rite now haha...
don't think i'll be doing much heavy work this wk...
juz abit of tidying up of my notes w/s everything then the main studying 'll start nxt wk...
maybe i'll go back to sch and study like wat i did for blks haha...
my hse not conducive for studying one loh...
there's no comfortable place for me to relax ard and study at all... not that sch is very comfortable but at least its better haha...