... ... BLOCK TEST ... ...

alrite...
its 1/2way through the blk test liao... phew...
gp and econs were okay lah... passable that is...
chem is urm... very not gd for me...
was quite demoralised after chem paper haha... but nvm its over liao shan't bother abt it...
2 more papers to go!!!
but it only ends nxt tues... =(
sianz...

i brought my lucky charm along with me today haha...
maybe that helps abit for econs paper =)
dunno...
everyone shld bring one loh or if u don't 've shld go get one... i think its quite useful haha...
even if it doesn't really work at least its some sort of erm... comfort...
depends on how u look at it that is...
of course it won't work 100% lah... but then it feels better with it ard...
haha..
abit nonsensical but some parts kinda make sense...

anyway...
i suddenly feel like watching initial d!
but blk test not over yet!! i hate this...
gtg...
adieos...

... ... PONDER ... ...

last update before the block test start... *booo*
oh well...
been mugging alot but i feel that i forgot 1/2 of them liao haha...
i'm trying to mug while i'm online also...
suppose to do some maths infront of the com but haven't done anything for like 2h+ haha...

nowadays on com is kinda juz to listen to mp3s only...
i can actually juz open window media player then stone at the visualisation screen while playing songs...
i think the visualisation quite cool...
mine's plenoptic : spyro...
like fountain like that then the colours very nice to watch... haha...
shld go try it... quite relaxing haha...
then 'll go into those "ponderous" mood... think lots of stuff...
smth like u go into another reality that's really ur own u know... i like that feeling...
i bet u think i'm nuts haha...
maybe its juz a nicer way of putting stonning?
on 2nd thoughts... day-dreaming sounds nicer... haha

gd luck to everyone for the block tests!!!
we can all make it!!
erm...
at least i hope so...
gtg back to stoning at my fountain of music haha... (taking a break from mugging until i wake up nxt morning)
adieos...

... ... BATMAN ... ...

went out for a movie with npcc squadmates today...
suppose to be 6 ppl but in the end left 3 ppl... oh well watever...
so eng kuan and me ate lunch and walked ard ps wasting time while waiting for yushu to arrive...
and we ended up mugging in KFC!!!
yeah i know... mugging in PS?! desperation can do miracles...
caught batman at 3pm...
woah... i thought it was quite nice =)
starting abit slow but after that became quite exciting... especially the train part...
but i think the bat mobile needs a makeover... it looks fat and erm... clumsy...
other than that... the mvoie was gd...
the bats were quite cool haha... like magic like that...
not the usual bright and cheerful hero type show (somehow i get that impression from other shows)
this one's kinda dark... and goes slightly deeper...
the way i like it haha...

mugging is seriously boring...
i'm looking at econs and not understanding much... as in i know this graph that graph but don't understand why...
ah heck...
i'll juz memorise the positions... haha...

yeah i'm feeling much better now...
was quite bothered for a while but i guess everything's alrite... =)
the additional badminton thing is juz irritating...
if there weren't the blk test... things 'ld get easier...
now is like i'm trying to study but then got major distraction jumping ard infront of me...
i've nothing against it but the timing's juz wrong... tough luck...
i'll juz muddle through somemore... hope after blk test got more time...
for now back to studying haha =P

i've a feeling this entry getting long...
better end liao...
adieos...

... ... BELIEVE ... ...

crap...
getting overwhelmed again...
so much stuff to do... quite sianz abt it...

studying for block test, badminton tournament, pw and other miscellaneous stuff...
actually i muz say its isn't that much things but juz that they r quite disaster-prone...
block test no need say lah... can study very hard but still end up with lousy results...
badminton tournament is erm... very disaster-prone like everything can go wrong so easily... sometimes i juz wish there's a HO ard... makes things so much easier... argh stress...
pw is erm... suddenly like quite abit to handle... go along and see how loh...

miscellaneous stuff...
interesting way of classifying the rest...
erm... can be abt so many things...
maybe its all in my head... yeah...
my imgination abit too gd... creates more probs for myself...

sometimes u juz wish that everything remain simple and pure... but then life's juz so complicated and things get somehow blurred and distorted...
argh... suddenly very hard to type anything out cause too many stuff i wanna convey...
but i guess i'll juz put my faith in it...
no matter wat... i'll work hard to keep watever i believe in...
yup...

someday...
everything 'll be rite...

... ... OTHERS ... ...

ahh...
maybe i shld stop being so adsorbed in myself...
yeah...
time to start delocalising...
its so easy to forget abt others sometimes... muz remember that its not all abt me all the time...
sometime others deserve some space for their own probs and matters too...
if there's anything i can juz be here waiting...
maybe i don't 've all the solutions but well... i do 've ears and a heart...
stay happy everyone =)

... ... 4A ... ...

sidetrack a little first...
remembered a story in a serial i watched last time...
a very interesting and nice story i muz say...
give so much insights...
yup...
there's only so much we can do given the limited bargining chips that we 've in life...
so wats wrong with doing watever we can to achieve the best possible result using these limited bargaining chips... who can really fault u then?
to make the best out of the worst... even if u know the end result 'll never be wat u really want...
hm...
it seems to be quite... ...

erm...
went for 4a class outing today...
wasn't exactly a success...
a few unexpected probs popped up suddenly...
oh well... nothing's perfect in this world...

ate at kap first...
suddenly discovered that the lan center at beauty world close down liao! means no place to play lan... was quite sianz diao...
but nvm...
went there to play pool instead while a few manage to get some com in some small lan shops and play dota...
so played pool until like 4:30 like that then closed the tables...
met up with the rest then decided to go orchard to well... hang out...
so went all the way to orchard...
browse ard in hmv for a while then went cine...
as usual had to take a long time to decide anything and finally settled on pastamania for dinner...
had some ham and sausauge baked rice... tasted quite nice...
then went up to lan to play 1h of dota...
erm...
used some unknown hero so dunno how to use... took me some time to figure out hot to play better using it...
the hero interesting lah but hard to use...
oh well nvm so lost...
looked through the glass panels at the road below while playing...
suddenely realised the scene below quite attractive...
very... don't really know how to describe...
all of a sudden like time stops for u and u're juz watching ppl and life go on ard u...
a moment of quiet and peace that makes everything ard seem so... beautiful?
after lan wanted to stone ard sit ard talk all that at first but then not much ppl left after that so decided to go home...
end of 4a outing... haha not much this time but okay lah...

hm...
thanx to everyone who turned up... sorry for all the unexpected hiccups haha...
erm... for those who can't make it maybe can go out again some day... nxt wk?
see how lah...
not much things left to do also... but won't mind going out again with ur =)
okay...
that's all...
gtg adieos...

... ... WAITING ... ...

sometimes u juz feel irritated...
yeah feel like absconding rite now... and throw everything behind haha...

the period of stoning/dying at home seems to 've some worth to it at last...
there's talk of getting a new com...
hm...
now its juz a bit more waiting i guess or rather i hope so...
we'll see...

... ... BORED ... ...

went overnight kbox on tuesday...
met abt 8pm for dinner then lagged ard before going in at 12...

erm...
sang alot of songs cause its like 6h?!
most konked out towards the end but i didn't really slp but towards the end also no voice to sing properly haha....
the whole thing ended at 6am...
then we kinda stoned ard outside cine...
sat ard like idiots...
kevin mentioned it was like hangover like that haha...
oh well...
so we hung ard for a while before going home...
everyone was too tired to go for breakfast and nothing was open yet...
went home then fell aslp...
woke up ard 12+ cause of some stupid machine doing construction work... super irritating...

after that and for the nxt 2 days until now...
i STONED at home...
yup really is stone loh...
the com spoilt so i tried my old com...
can work but the monitor is siao liao... everytime i on the com 1/2 - 1h later the screen 'll get more and more blur...
then no matter how i adjust it doesn't help...
argh...
so i still end up with nothing to do basically...
means i'm super bored...
i think i'm driving myself crazy liao... nuts already...
if i got money not so bad can do out and do stuff but i'm kinda broke also loh...
sianz...

i desperately need help...
anyone got any smart ideas to recommend?