After some self-diagnosis, I think I’m sick!
And I think it’s a whole lot of trouble for myself from now on, sigh.
Although I never really go and search extensively about it but let’s just hope its not some long-term kind of thing. And I thought I can get away with my horrible lifestyle =X
其实也没有任何资格去抱怨着舍麽
我想我也理智得有点可怕
那些无处可放的情绪 就抛在不常看到的一角
然后海潮依然退涨 然后明天依然叠复
在不去猜想的日子里 等待那总会到来的结论
On this day,
the lights are too bright, the weather is too warm and when I fix the fan at myself, I feel like I’m going to suffocate. The music doesn’t seem right. The stupid 2101 notes isn’t organized nicely to make sense and the textbook has too much nonsense, biz comm ppt seems too difficult to word and memorise. I am feeling whiny and frustrated and irritated and tomorrow feels like a long horrible day.
Sigh.
Its that kind of night.
When I have work lining up for my attention but they’re not really urgent (or so I would think), and I’m just wasting time trying to find things to entertain myself but not really doing anything in particular.
When I look up and there’s nothing much to look forward to, and I don’t have any concrete short-term plans for the days ahead.
And its just a bit on the cold side, with this thin layer of silence and air all round when I look out of the windows, so its like the lights are brighter and the sounds are louder.
And everything seems just right. The lights aren’t too bright, it isn’t too humid, the music is just nice with the right tempo and pace and not too distracting.
When my mood lands in a particular state that doesn’t fluctuates at both ends.
And I think its all right to drop everything, to get lost and not bother about finding the way back, to lose things and not be bothered about them, to feel and not be bothered about the consequences, to do things and think that they don’t really matter at all.
And when I think to myself that its nice to just indulge in this moment, like having nothing and not wanting anything, just for tonight.
So that when I wake up tomorrow, wishing for and wanting anything and everything, I still know that there was such a moment in a somewhere at a sometime.
五月天 – OAOA
I have to say it’s a rather typical 五月天 upbeat song. There’s nothing much to comment for the MV either cause I don’t think there’s anything special, just that I like the beat of the song and especially the line “我相信 秒秒的瞬间 我不信 年年的永远”. However, I fail to understand the significance of OAOA and I’m too lazy to go online and look for it so I guess I shall leave it at that. And I think I will prob go watch their 3D concert movie if its not very expensive haha.
田馥甄 - 还是要幸福
I went to buy her album! One of the very few albums (countable with 1 hand) I buy in a year haha. It’s a very 寂寞寂寞就好 song, which I don’t really mind since its nice enough. She has some other more unique songs in the album which are quite nice as well but I think I prefer her 1st album more. And I seriously think she is one of the few singers that is marketed and positioned correctly. There should always be some natural progression towards maturity/seasonedness and I seriously think it’s a bad idea to stagnate at the same image for too long – especially if you debuted as those cutsey/idol kind of singers or group. And in this regard, I think 杨丞琳 has been doing a pretty good job as well cause you can actually see the direction she’s heading in.
I am not sure why I actually have the time to be blogging here cause I feel REALLY busy this week. I just found out I have a mid-terms next Mon! (I’m quite sure at least 60% or even more of the students didn’t know until he announced it during lecture on Mon). And on top of that, there’s the usual workload of stuff to take care of, just that I seem to be exerting a lot of brainpower every week this semester. I think its mainly because of my nm2208 module, for which I have to squeeze my brain out to come up with design ideas and concepts which are hopefully creative enough.
And I don’t know if I should go for MAF this year! I was thinking maybe can organize something haha but now that I’m so busy and with the mid-terms on Mon, I’m not even sure if I should be there.
HMMM…