... ... 2 WKS LATER ... ...

i've decided that 2 wks is a very long time!

i'm cock-eyed! which equals to alot of problems for me particularly...
u can't imagine how i can actually get so stressed out over it haha...
but i got through it so yeah that's it for BTP...

i really really need to train!

nxt wk is field camp! =(

... ... NS ... ...

today is the 11th! tml is ns day for me! haha...
i guess i'm all packed and ready to go... although the packing process is really quite irritating... there's always this undepreparedness feeling hanging ard bleugh...
've that "cannot waste time muz finish everything" feeling over the past few days but when it gets down to it i can't really think of all the things that i need to do to hold on to the sand that continues to seep through my fingers...
and before u know it poof its 11th already haha...

so i guess that's it haha...
if u see life as a series of train stations... then i guess i'm juz getting on the nxt train heading to the nxt station haha...
well after milling ard with everyone else at the station for last 2 yrs i suppose the train 'll arrive sooner or later haha...
haha yup now i'm juz hoping i'll get nice ppl with some common grounds to fall back on... although past exp tells me fate never plays it fair haha...
oh well we shall find out tml then...

hm... why is there this sense of "finality" weaving through my words haha...
well when u leave on a train somewhere maybe u leave behind that part of u that existed before u board the train...
and well after that u juz find a new u at the nxt station and god knows wat happens inbetween haha...
so yeah i think i'll change... and i hope its for the better! =)

okay that's it...
cya after 2 wks haha (come to think of it it doesn't really seem that long too but i may change my mind afterwards so yeah)
adieos...

... ... NORMAL ... ...

whew...
finally back from cls chalet for the past 3 days...
slept more than i planned to after reaching home haha...
oh well i muz be more tired than i thought... even though i slept like 7h like that on the 2nd nite haha...
the 2nd nite was peaceful and we finally did get a chance to go on a night walk haha... although the break water was like totally full =(
but okay i guess that was nice haha... shld 've done so on the 1st nite but everyone ended up slping so yeah too bad...

and i only went to the beach once in the afternoon on the 1st day!
argh wasted...
shld 've gone there again!
its juz nice to sit there and feel the wind haha... once again no opportunity so too bad again...

it kinda feels gd to be home again haha...
and i finally finish everything so its a pretty cool feeling...
haha time to leave all the imaginary responsibilities behind and i'll be a normal ex sec4 student, a normal ex npcc cadet and a normal ex jc student =)

5 and counting...

... ... blood diamond ... ...

well went to watch blood diamond today...
and yup it wasn't too bad although i thought the front part was really too draggy...
action-wise i didn't think it was too fantastic but it has its own merits in other areas which were really quite nicely done... nice emotional touches everywhere actually haha...
not strangely enough... my favourite has got to be the last scene... eh actually almost the last scene when the helicopter took off haha (i'm being vague to prevent possible spoilers haha)
it has way too much meaning and depth in it =)

oh and yeah...
i played my first para para in the arcade =S

and yeah i juz realise smth a few min ago...
i mean if i were him i wld 've chosen to keep quiet and not say anything haha...
but aiyah... i guess alot of things doesn't really matter anymore...