... ... SOME THOUGHTS ... ...

sometimes u wld wonder how much and how long it wld take for you to feel contented...
and u wld look ard and realise that nth could be wat it really shld be...
why shld there be imperfectness and all its unnecessary offshoots...
and if there's really some being out there watching out for us...
there wld be some fear, some hatred and at the end that bit loneliness...
it wld be a long nite but somewhere along the line u wld fall aslp...
and the nxt day wld come...
and u wld wake up to feel ur helplessness...
but to admit this disheartening and carry on as best as u can...
perhaps that is a form of courage in itself...

in the end u wld realise that this world has nothing to offer...
its has been so rite from the start except u do not realise it yet...
this world or rather ur world is derived only from ur own perceptions and beliefs...
there is nth more to it than efforts and perhaps that is wat defines humanity...

tml wld come and it wld be juz another day...

... ... JUZ ANOTHER BAD DAY ... ...

when u're shortchanged of 1 day of ur long wkend u tend to get alittle grumpy and irritated with everything... cause i got guard duty on sunday!
so while ppl get to bk in on sunday ntie i 've to bk in on sat nite! =(

and things didn't exactly go as planned after i got back from camp...
i got rejected like so many times =(
1st thing was firefly interview! i didn't even get through the 1st rd of interview loh =(
then airforce rejected me too! but nvm i was never that keen on it anyway... not with the 10 yr sign on written all over it... but i wldn't mind being a nsf in the airforce =)
and...
and... erm...
and my games rejected me too!
somehow i keep on dying and the stupid boss refuse to die... after trying like dunno how many times i decided to give up...
then in another game i got killed by some stupid ghost like 3/4 through the stage... by then i was too irritated to restart everything again...
sigh...
and now i'm thinking abt bking in again... and u can guess how sianz that makes me =(

hm...
i thought i cld go kbox tml! but no chance liao haha...
although i'm having abit of sore throat and flu now but then maybe can recover by tml mah... we shld always be optimistic at certain times...
oh well guess we'll juz 've to wait until dunno when then =(
i seems to be frowning alot in this entry =(
urm juz another bad day i guess... and many more to come...

... ... SISPEC ECHO ... ...

1st bk out from sispec!
got posted to echo coy...
hm... i suppose i'm lucky its not a xiong coy haha although we still train hard during trg but other than that we enjoy more welfare than the rest =)
well they prefer to run it on a system of trust and i'm not complaining abt that haha...

and i guess i'll be the tailwind and the breeze...