... ... A CHOICE ... ...

i'm going India for 3 months from March to end of May! the thing is i really volunteered for it when they asked for 1 spec and 1 man to go... but as it was then it doesn't seemed like there were any other ppl who can make the trip there other than me... i juz hope the overseas payment and the escape from my brigade more than make up for it...

rite now i'm wondering if i made the correct choice for myself... i know it seemed like it was the way to go back then but now i'm a little hesitant... suddenly it seems like its such a big decision made in such a short time when i don't know too many things... but i guess its too late to change anything now so i may as well stick to it and pray that it wouldn't be too demanding there... and there's the issue of how to entertain myself once i'm there cause really without a PSP/DS rite now, all i can do is read bks and stuff but i don't think i can sustain that long in an overseas environment... hm the idea of getting a PSP finally did cross my mind but well, i'm still struggling with that cause i juz spent like a 1000 on changing my cpu and monitor and i don't really fancy splurging again so soon (plus i haven't really got all my CNY stuff yet too)

talking abt CNY, i got a shirt yesterday when i went shopping ard town but i was thinking of getting like a belt, shoes and maybe another top but then looking at the amount i've been spending this month, i think i may juz end up getting the belt, or another top if i'm really feeling that rich... and it sux that i only have another wkend to go shopping for stuff =(

i'm really kinda pleased with the new cpu and monitor but i realise that i don't have much games or anything that can fully make use of it... my warcraft III cds has been deposited at someone's house for yrs already and i haven't really gotten them back... i would love to get them back but its such a chore to have to go and collect it sometimes so i have been procrastinating all i can haha... there's these company of heroes and stalker games that came along free of charge but to tell the truth i'm not that interested in them but anyway out of "desperation" i tried out company of heroes just now and it wasn't too bad so maybe i will occupy myself with that from now on... but i really needa find some ways to make full use of my new com... perhaps getting some online games but the thought of having to dl and register and all that that kinda puts me off a little... but one infuriating thing is that my Zen micro refuses to work on the new windows Vista! and from my research online, it doesn't seem like it can ever work on the vista platform unless i reinstall XP and then install my player software then upgrade back to vista again (way too much work!) its kinda pissing me off and i really feel like getting one that can support videos also but money is really the issue here sigh...

all in all, that's abt all for now...
have to book in later and there's SOC test coming up on thursday! which i think i'm gonna fail but seriously i don't really care about that... other than that i'm juz praying for another peaceful wk =)

... ... JAY CHOU WORLD TOUR 2008 ... ...

after waiting eagerly for this 1 whole wk i finally made it to Jay Chou's Singapore concert on 18th Jan yesterday! and to make it even better it was his 29th birthday as well!

I was so excited about the concert the whole day but I was almost late for it cause I made the mistake of going through town to get there and there was like a major jam with other concert-goers like me who were trying desperately to get onto the bus... by the time i reached there it was like already 8plus so there wasn't time to go and look at all the souvenirs and other stuff on sale (sigh) so i just rushed into the indoor stadium haha... but turned out i wasn't the latest cause sua ning was also stuck in the jam and arrived juz when the opening kicked off... oh and if u're wondering i went there with dawei, sua ning, calvin chew and xunyu (yeah i know I'm kinda doesn't fit in there but it wasn't too bad haha)

before I change language to touch on the concert proper, there's just a few more stuff I wanna mention... to properly enjoy a concert, you really shldn't be holding onto a camera or anything else other than light sticks or any other stuff for you to show your support to your idols... unfortunately I cldn't resist the temptation and yeah was having a hard time juggling between my camera, handphone (to record down which songs he sang so that i wldn't forget later) and the free giant "I Luv Jay Chou" cardboard hand + light sticks haha... I was more high for this concert than I was for Incomparable to Jay concert in 2004 although I still hold the opinion that the latter was a better concert in terms of content and concert presentation... I think I was closer to the stage in Incomparable to Jay concert although I paid more for ticket this time round... It was irritatingly difficult to get clear shots this time and I wasn't really proud of the photos I had taken (unlike in Incomparable to Jay) and to top it off, there was this one idiot with dyed hair that keeps appearing in the clear shots that I had! Hopefully I will be able to get better photos from dawei... the only video that i took was during his encore section when he played fa ru xue on gu zhen but i'm not sure why i took it cause it wasn't really that interesting as a video haha

rite that's about it, on to the concert proper!

周杰伦世界巡回演唱会2008 （新加坡）

曲目：
黄金甲
无双
最后的战役
不能说的秘密
退后
麦芽糖
牛仔很忙
听妈妈的话
黑色幽默
最长的电影
安静
白色风车
宇豪钢琴对战 + 舞蹈
千里之外
菊花台
南拳妈妈 - Tonight, What Can I Do, 牡丹江
夜的第七章
夜曲
迷迭香
生日歌 + 忍者，双节棍（改版）
彩虹
开不了口
甜甜的
encore 1 - 阳光宅男
encore 2 - 发如雪（古筝）
encore 3 - 霍元甲, 双节棍

一开始就料到新加坡这一站不会有太多新增的表演项目，所以当其他人还在猜测开场歌曲会是哪一首时，我却已经预料他会身穿紫色盔甲，并以黄金甲和无双作为开场表演。看他在台上努力地演出，也情不自禁的high了起来。随着演唱会的开始，我也庆幸自己能够随着音乐的节奏，把其余的自己抛开，让自己能够放纵地去享受这期盼已久的演唱会。

续无双后，杰伦带来了太久没听到的最后的战役，也是第一首大家能大合唱的歌曲。从不能说的秘密开始，我也开始高举荧光棒，跟随音乐的节奏左右摇摆，名正言顺地当起了一名粉丝，做些粉丝该做的事haha。=) 牛仔很忙让杰伦呈现难得的舞蹈表演。虽然没有其他艺人厉害但也算不错了。 听妈妈的话唱到一半时却突然插入周纫发搞笑的录像，更有张学友通过录像帮忙唱一段副歌，目的是想让大家有个惊喜，但我之前已看过其他地区演唱会的报道，所以对此也没多大的意外。

如果没记错的话，杰伦在钢琴上只演绎了黑色幽默，最长的电影，安静这三首歌，让我有那麽一点点的失望。因为我一直认为他在弹钢琴的时候是最帅气，最有气质的。更烦人的是他面向另一边，从我的座位只能看到他的背影，即使想要拍照也没有舍麽意思。况且我又觉得他身穿黑亮的色外套，整体感觉与钢琴有点不搭，让我有那美中不足的一点点失望，但至少他唱了新专辑中我最喜欢的最长的电影。之后值得提的就是宇豪于杰伦的钢琴对战，所弹的也就是《不能说的秘密》电影里头的旋律。中国风的千里之外和菊花台也随后登场，却偏偏少了青花瓷。

特别嘉宾南拳妈妈虽说不是很特别但对于他们的表演，我也没设麽不满意。呈现的Tonight 和 牡丹江都是我喜欢的歌。特别嘉宾之后，杰伦坐在巨型粉红色高梗鞋从舞台底下伸上，并与女舞者有“火辣”的贴身舞，同时唱了夜的第七章，夜曲与迷迭香。ehh台下的我却看得有点莫名其妙。

杰伦与南拳妈妈和吉他手众人坐在舞台中央，随性地聊天并由南拳妈妈带领大家为杰伦大唱生日歌算是演唱会最温馨的一幕吧。也让我们听到了改版的忍者和双节棍，尤其改版之后的双节棍旋律意外的动听。甜甜的作为演唱会最后一首歌有点不妥但今天是杰伦的生日，也许曲目快乐点也是应该的。

之后encore部分的发如雪最出色，因为前半部由杰伦亲自以古筝弹出了旋律，还有大家的陪唱，有那种依依不舍的感觉haha。最后最后选择了节奏快的霍元甲和双节棍来做high翻天的收场。他让我们一起跟他跳起来，一起为这场演唱会以及他的29岁生日做了最难忘最high的序幕，让我不得不庆幸自己能够参于周杰伦世界巡回演唱会2008。

在回顾照片的同时，才发觉最喜欢的还是杰伦他静态的一面。

为了这场演唱会期盼了很久很久，但3个小时的享受也就这样过了。这次的hangover没比上次无与伦比演唱会严重但那失落感还是会有的haha。sigh 我还真想再次回味那live的感觉，也只好等待DVD的到来吧。

this entry's getting abit too long so i guess i shall leave some stuff for other times haha...

... ... WALLED ... ...

this has been a horribly long wk! it has been a really long time since i actually had to spend 6 days on NS and i'm totally drained out... and its actually only the start of worse to come sigh... and to top it off someone has been getting on my nerves recently by hanging around day in day out ard us... somehow i juz have an issue with him although he never really did anything to me but i guess its juz his attitude... i haven't been able to enjoy a moment of peace since he started appearing... there were certain days when i got up on the wrong side of bed and wished that i could be left alone for a quiet peaceful rest but then he would just butt into my bunk and ruined it for me... it happened and will happen everyday! now i'm planning to run and hide in the office whenever he decides to barge in, juz so that i won't have to torture myself with his presence... its just one of the few times you run into ppl whom you have totally zero chemistry with... as if i don't already have enough troubles on my hand sigh... gosh i'm juz plain irritated...

they really shld make allowances for me to have my emo days so that i can spend the whole day walled up behind my thoughts and emotions... its so irritating when you actually have to deal with clueless fellows when you busy brooding about all the bad stuff... nowadays i really wanna be antisocial so i can keep myself away from all the nonsense running ard... its such a chore to be sociable when i don't wanna be...

and I DON'T WANT SOC!

and the coming fri is Jay Chou's concert!
i've been waiting for God knows how long cause its the only thing that i can look forward to nowadays!
FRIDAY COME FASTER!

... ... ITS ONLY SOLITUDE ... ...

yesterday was prob the worst of my days in 2008 so far, although i muz admit 2008 was only as old as 4 days' worth of time... i was doing COS on that day and i managed to cock up pretty much everything... sigh and i also happened to be the fortunate one that manage to get COS duty on Chinese New Year's Eve but i still wonder whether it was because of that that things started going wrong subsequently... and to add on to that, there's confirmation of more shit to come from nxt wk onwards with the reintroduction of duty spec and the never-before introduction of waking up on time at ungodly hours to do 5BX before going for breakfast... seems like we brought in a world of bad news ever since we got posted in sigh...

my problematic com never fails to come up with new innovative probs each wk and this time it surprises me with a windows live messenger that disappears 5s after i log in... i was even more perplexed when ebuddy refuses to work as well... nvm i think i can afford to live in isolation for a while more... and to think i was juz finishing this bk "one hundred years of solitude" which was full of solitude beings who can't seem to get on with lives properly without involving themselves in nonsensical pursuits and excessive forbidden desires... and i seem to be falling into the state of perpetual nostalgia and depression that permeate the characters in the story... and i realise why i wldn't believe in a God or why i have the impulse to make a mess of my life and run away after that...

at least i have 曹格's new songs to entertain me...

i'm really in not much of a mood to write anything more rite now...

... ... 2008 ... ...

and its 2008!
frankly i wasn't exactly that high abt 2008 approaching cause i kind predicted its gonna be a bad yr for me or at least it will start off badly for me =( i was kinda dreading it the whole of this dec actually but i guess there's juz no avoiding it in the end... to think i used to be that excited whenever it comes to the end of a yr but that's really all in the past... actually alot of things are all in the past haha...

on the last day of 2007, i watched I AM LEGEND with some of my 72 clsmates and i muz say it wasn't really up to my expectation... i mean there were all kinds of glowing reviews abt it and i went in expecting more from the movie... its was like kityeng said before the movie, juz like resident evil haha although it was less action-packed obviously... of course you can say it deals more with the the idea of isolation and the way it affects you in more ways than you can imagine but i didn't really think that was like "deep" enough to elevate the movie from an action flick to a "thinking" movie... overall it wasn't that bad but it didn't really impress me either so i guess its up to individual perceptions haha...

after that we headed over to emilia's hse for dinner and a stayover countdown haha... dinner was prepared by her mum and maid and it was really gd, consisting of prawn salad, mashed potatoes, chicken wings, sushi and some other stuff and lucky we managed to finish most of it except for the sushi i think haha... we didn't really eat that much of snacks either throughout the whole nite and we didn't really do much too... juz some cards, mahjong, abit of ps2 as well... the rest of it was spent watching dvds and the countdown programmes on tv... but it was nice to be able to sit down with friends and discuss abt random stuff and i think that always gets to me in the end even if we're doing nth in particular... i think i'm really that kind of guy that is okay with siting down and chat (provided we 've things to talk abt), when there's absolutely nothing to do... and i realise again that i ought to get some more 2plyers games for the ps2, esp those fighting ones haha... once again thanx to all who turned up that nite =)

and on the 1st day of 2008, i watched ALIEN VS PREDATOR 2 with some of my 72 clsmates and it was a major letdown... i was so bored with it halfway through the movie cause it was really quite a pathetic attempt to make some story out of it... they shld 've cut the no. of inconsequential characters running ard in the movie juz to get killed and focused on a tight few to make charcter development much better... or rather i wldn't exactly mind if they juz focus on the predator and forget abt all the humans... the fight scenes wasn't that bad although it was really really dark everywhere and in the end i cldn't make out wat they were doing during all those fights... i mean okay the setting and atmosphere were done correctly here but hey wats the point if i can't see any of the action going on down there... so juz watch it if u really feel u 've to but at least watch it during the wkday haha...

and to end off 2007 properly, it has really been a tumultuous yr for me with all the ns shit that keeps coming non-stop but its a relief that i managed to make it through, although i wld say i did horribly in it... i had more issues than u can possibly imagine but glad to say i'm less than a yr away from ORDing... it has also been an awful yr for organising gatherings cause so many ppl have flown off to other countries and some ppl's presence are sorely missed haha...

2007 has been a difficult yr of change and 2008 will be a difficult yr of persisting through to the end.

2007，很不顺的一年。

因为跟不上变迁的节奏所以一直很努力的在后头追，追得自己喘不过气，累得自己忘了呼吸。有时为自己感到多麽的不值，但也明白一切也只能怨自己是那麽的不争气。现在回想起来，当时的我的确很辛苦，很无奈，但最终时间还是继续地往前走，我也就这样熬过了大半年。也因此我遗留了太多的遗憾和亏欠，而我学会了如何去掩埋，如何去忘却，好像如此就能把一切归零。

2008年的开始，我只渴望能够原谅自己的愚蠢和寂寞，让自己为自己好过一些。