I always hate it when I make stupid mistakes and create trouble/problems for other people. Although I didn’t do it on purpose and strictly speaking it’s not that big a deal, but it doesn’t make the consequences any easier to deal with.
I see the implications and the guilt hanging all around me and it totally wreck my “overdrive” mood, when I felt like I could just go into overdrive and get all the work done properly.
It’s like being locked in a room with the key in my hands, but I can’t bring myself to unlock that door cause it’s too easy. And I think madness is an easier cure but I’m properly much too sane for that.
And the irony was that I was watching Code Geass and getting really irritated by some of the stupid characters and their silly mistakes with catastrophic consequences. And here I am trying to get past myself and stop dwelling upon my mistakes.
And in the end I guess it can only be a waiting game, when I’m just waiting for time to erase the walls for me.